way too much blogging- 79... till I got no mo'.

Honestly who blogs this much? I am professionally worthless today. Why? Because I'm unhappy. Which brings me to...

79. I work out harder when I am troubled.
78. It's harder to work out when I am happy.
77. I should not drink when I am angry... because you will hear about it.
76. I should not drink when I am sad... I might cry, unless you make me laugh... Then I might cry because I miss Madigan.
75. I have grown into a person who is able to let go of people who are not good to/for me.
74. Sometimes that still hurts.
73. I haven't written besides journaling in almost a year. Instead I shove things I write on scraps or put pen to what is put on my laptop in Arc... thinking I will come back to it later.
72. I have never given my sister the book of my poetry she asked for-
because: a) it isn't finished b) it will never be finished c) because every time I open it I am tempted to change things. and I think my writing young... and though I can see the progression... I still think some of it is just too bad for another person to read.

*now she won't get it because I don't foresee a need to speak to her for a good long time*

71. I have trusted some of the wrongest people with my words.
70. I am a snob when it comes to literature and I secretly turn up my nose at people who buy books in the grocery store and only read James Patterson or romance novels. they are not real books to me.
69. I don't like people.
68. I lie. I like them in THEORY... but usually not in practice. In living color and large groups then general population are a bunch of a**holes.
67. I stopped bar tending when I came to # 69 and 68.
66. Obviously I like some people.
65. Pot roast is my favorite food. ever.
64. I can't stand blind forwards and chain emails. If you email me enough dumb sh*t I will stop reading anything you send me.
63. ***I take this one back because it involves the life of an innocent child***
62. I would still be there for her (Pretty Camel) if she needed something.
61. I want to say the same for Madigan, but I defended her bad behavior for too long. Today I have deleted her from my friend list.
60. In some ways I am like my mother.
59. Not all of them are good.
58. Christmas chocolate still makes me happy, even if I don't eat it.
56. Dream Killer lied to me about not getting grades yet. They've been posted for 2 weeks and I know how he did. But I will let him think I believe the lie.
55. I hate watching ballets with anyone who knew me when I danced. I will never be in that kind of shape again. To try would be the advent of cortisone shots. and people say dumb sh*t like "what if?"
54. I don't believe in can't. I am not a natural runner, so I am training with a sprinter. My stamina was sporadic but short over consistent spans of time... solution? circuit training. I am going to be more flexible than I am now... yoga.
53. I still don't bow in yoga.
52. I took my thimble with me on vacation because I did not want to risk the chance of someone else touching it.

that's all I got for now.